I’m already at like 500. Fuck.

Everything I do contradicts itself.

I feel like a terrible, cold hearted, empty person.

Where did my heart go? :(

It’s time to gain it back. I want my passion back. I want to be fucking beautiful, charming, classy, witty, and cute at the same time. 

I want to be perfect.

I feel so badly, but I have been a real slut. I’m so fucking disgusting I want to vomit.

It’s probably also the drugs that brought out my inner-slutiness.

Ketamine. Acid. Molly. Weed. Alcohol.

All that shit just fries your brain. In the long run, sure it’s fun, but it’s hurting you.

I have sinned, but I am done. I am done partaking in this bullshit that is making me miserable and also a terrible person. Today is when I begin. No more bullshit. No more lies. No more drama. No more getting fucked up just for fun and just because I can.

I’m going to be an amazing fucking person. :)